That's how writing works, at least for me: even the stuff that doesn't work out gets funneled into the stuff that does work out.
Go spit in the face of our inevitable obsolescence and finish your @#$&ng novel.
I'm not interested in writing for adults. I like them as people! I don't like the way they publish books in that world. Nothing ever gets a chance.
One of the things I like about making stuff in the age of the Internet, is that people make stuff in response to it. You can see people respond to your work visually or musically or with writing.
The funny thing about writing is that whether you're doing well or doing it poorly, it looks the exact same. That's actually one of the main ways that writing is different from ballet dancing.