When a sense of dissatisfaction persists, that means it was placed there by God for one reason only: you need to change everything and move forward.
Love is not a habit, a commitment, or a debt. It isn't what romantic songs tell us it is - love simply is.
Sex was always surrounded by taboos, and I don't see it necessarily as a manifestation of evil. I think that sexuality is first and foremost the way that God chooses for us to be here on earth, to enjoy this energy of love in the physical plane.
The end of one stage is only the beginning of another. Any dangers overcome are the necessary preparation to do better in the next stage.
And although she was sometimes dissatisfied with herself, she felt unable to go beyond her own limitations. Books were safer.